Friday, May 04, 2007
dear world,
i thought yesterday was a bad day for me already, but it turns out that today seems worse . i guess its really the emo season like what liangyu said, im feeling really moody too . a lot of things seem to be going through my mind right now, and i feel that im in such a blur state that i cant do things properly today . nothing seems to go smoothly for me - i think . like schoolwork and all, its really obvious that im not coping well with them but its like i cant find the energy to really put my mind into studies . i used to enjoy school but now i dont find myself laughing like as before on the fun stuffs we had in class . i feel like an introvert actually, maybe i looked like im not but i do . i dont find myself talking as much as before . it's like something heavy was surpressing my throat and i dont like this feeling . i dont get how people can chat ever so carefreely and i cant . its like there's something really wrong with me .
i'd still like to thank zy for listening to me last night . i really like midnight chats . the lights were off, no music, no internet, nothing . just you and me listening to each other sharing our stuffs . but i know you'd still like me to tell you more about my problems but i guess i still dont like to open up . what i told you yesterday was probably 1 of the many trivial things that's going through my mind . yarh trivial . i dont even get why im having my head stuffed with so many trivial problems . but i guess i really need someone to talk to last night . thanks alot zy . (:
on a lighter note, i totally miss my friends like xin ying and charlotte . i was a lil' surprised when charlotte asked me 'ni you xing shi arh' during the principal's talk. i guess best friends can really tell through my actions . we three walked out from the lecture theatre soon cause we were too bored and went to the parade square . i tell you it's really really beautiful at night . we were like the only three at that very open space . sitting just right on the open stage upfront and making wishes like little kids upon the many stars . so many laughters . so much fun . i totally love the presence of them . its always comfortable, and i really miss them loads . <3
i love you too world, but sometimes theres so many things on you that's revolving around me - im getting sicked of it . (:
loves,
peiting .
11:14 PM
