Wednesday, January 06, 2010
i know this is a very very late post but i stilll wanna summarise year 2009 like i did for every year ! :)
okay. very happy things that happened in 2009. :)
1. JAYDEN. i'm so glad my sister gave birth to him. he's such a cute little rascal that whenever he does something wrong, you just couldn't bear to scold him, cause he'll make you go 'awww' *smiles, then 'carry him up and beat his little butt and says ' dont do that again ok ? *smiles again*' hahaha.
seriously he is the cutest baby i've ever seen. *not biased*
2. BLOGSHOP ! i've been wanting to own one since forever, i did my research on the net. everything online, by myself (am proud), even establishing contact with one particular Taiwan Merchant which ALOT of spree organisers have problems getting stock from them. Many emailed to ask me how to order from that particular merchant but i'm too selfish to share. ><
3. Earning my own keep. Finally, after years of getting allowance from my parents, for the past 12 mths, I have nv taken allowance from my daddy and mummy ! :) an achievement ! to thank my dad for helping me with my spree stuffs, i've given him mthly 'pay' too okay ! :) (he always calls me his boss, HAHA and he says i'm saving a lot of money for him. HAHA)
4. Catching up with my old budds. I seriously felt closer with my NCHS budds. had my best countdown ever with them, sleepover and etc. they are my sisters for life, for sure. :) the tooties etc. I LOVE MY TOOTS THE MOST SERIOUSLY. ;) never fail to make my day.
5. BEST for the last. my loved ones, namely family and wh. :) lub them so much too ! i dare say my family are still as closely bonded as ever. :) with the new addition Jayden, everything has become even more livelier ! even in the middle of the night when u can hear him scream for milk. -.- HAHA.
and wei hong, we argued a lot this year. but we learnt from our mistakes each time (except me being late i can never get pass that) ! noone is perfect so we both have to accept the flaws. tml will be a year and a half and things are getting even more better for us ! :) YAY UNDERWATER WORLD TML CAN'T WAIT. i've been *hinting* him sometimes you see.
very unhappy stuffs.
if there's no the above 5 things i mentioned above, 2009 will hit rock bottom as the worst year in my life ever.
i really hated my life at one point that i felt really helpless, very sensitive, very useless, very disappointed with myself, very down, cried almost every night, that i was thinking to myself, what will happen if i leave all things here, issit gonna be better ? i'm really comtemplating to myself, is this it ? things just did not get any better when i see my friends around me, getting into local universities and talking about their orientations, modules etcetc. why they can, and I can't ? what the hell has gone wrong in me ? i used to be a 10 raw pointer, now i could not even make it, a big question mark, just WHY?
thankfully, i have no idea what pulled me up. after a difficult period, i opened up my mind. so what ? so what if i could not get into a local U ? so what ? money issues in the future ? no stable income ? it all boils down to money and again, money ? i was paranoid the last time . Now ? Not anymore . i need to seize each and everyday, time is precious, i have no time to waste on thinking on these money issues when i'll eventually deal with them in future. i want to focus on living happily now.
i could not accept the fact of getting into a private U the previous time, but now if i still cannot make it, then go lor . :) i admit i'm not as studious already, but perhaps if i'm learning something which i like, i might excel and find gold in it. GO OPTIMISIM !
when there's no way to go, make a way. at times as i think about my family and close budds that i have, i'd like to think i'm the more fortunate one. :)
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